My world: Danny

“To the world you may be one person, but to me you are the whole world!”

- Heather Cortez

Happy Valentines Day Danny.  You are my whole SL and I love deeply.  Forever and ever may we share special days together!

Max Ehrmann

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Desiderata

Max Ehrmann

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Family Life Pitfalls

Well, maybe family life isn’t so great.  My dad – Nolan – is freaking out.  Yesterday, my stupid brother announced to him and the world that he and Ben were boyfriends.  Fine.  Be boyfriends.  That’s great.  I don’t care.  But don’t tell Daddy Nolan all about it.  Let him think you’re just friends.  That’s what Danny and I have been doing now for over three years and it worked fine.  But no, my dope brother had to go and tell him all about it.  And boy was Daddy Nolan sour about the whole thing. And to make matters worse, he found at that Danny and I really are boyfriends too and not just friends.  He flew off the handle.

I sure hope Daddy Brendon can talk some sense into him, because he is getting all puritanical on us.  He’s got his whole slew of new rules he’s about to lay down, like we’re not going to be able to even be alone together ever basically, and some crazy curfew thing too.  Its like he can’t trust KJ and me suddenly because we’re getting closer in that way to Ben and Danny.  I don’t know.  Its impossible to talk to him when he gets like this.

**sighs**

Family Life

KJ and I have been acting a lot more like brothers the past couple weeks than we have ever before, and that has felt good.  We have our dads – Brendon and Nolan – and for the first time in my SL the family role play seems to actually be working for me.

On top of that, Danny has two new dads too and I’ve met one of them, who seems really really nice.  I’ve also been thinking a lot about Sacha, who really wants a dad, and thinking about letting Nolan be his dad.  And KJ has been talking about us adopting Ben too into our family, but he and Ben are now boyfriends, so I’m not sure if he still really wants him to be his brother too.

Family role play in Second Life is extremely intense for me, and can be intense in a very good way.  The role plays I did with KJ around Thanksgiving time were really powerful for me, and I still can’t get them out of my head.  Now that RL has picked up its pace again, I don’t have anywhere near that time to dedicate to Second Life, but I don’t want to let those experiences vanish either.

In other words, life is good.  Let’s live it up!

Peace out everybody!

Updated Status

I’m a little overdue here for an update, so going to try to catch up a little bit here.  Life is good.  I’ve been hanging out a lot with my dads in Second Life and also my brother KJ.  I’ve made a few new friends recently that I’ve been talking to a bit more.  Life is busy though so I don’t get to hang out with friends nearly as much as I wish I could be.  I’m in a play right now, in “A Christmas Carol” and that keeps me busy too.  Also working on writing.  Not that you could tell from reading this rambling post, but hey, what do you expect.  I’m pressed for time.  Given my recent blogging record, you should be happy I’m writing anything at all!

Selected lyrics from Jay Sean’s “Down”

You oughta know,
tonight is the night to let it go,
Put on a show, I wanna see how you lose control,
So leave it behind ’cause we have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape.

You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down..

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Kiss the Girl

Remember that girl I mentioned before?  The one I sit behind in English?  The one I like?  Her name is Gloria.  She’s the one whose mom teaches at the same elementary school where Cheyenne teaches.  Well.  Yeah.  She and I are supposed to kiss!  Yeah!

Let me explain:  We’re doing a school play; its this collection of Shakespeare scenes, all from different plays.  Its got high school and middle school kids in it.  Well, I signed up for it and, of course, with my name I get teased a lot for it, but I don’t care.  Anyways, in this one scene, I’m playing Theseus and she plays Hippolyta and I’m supposed to kiss her!  Its the beginning of the scene and we walk out holding hands – omgosh, her hands are so soft, feel so good in mine – and then we walk downstage together and we’re supposed to kiss before we sit down.  I couldn’t believe it when Ms. Dieckman told us to kiss each other.  We didn’t do it, of course.

But I wanted to.  I really think I did, atleast.  But I know she didn’t want to.  I don’t think she likes me that way.  I’m pretty sure of it.  I just need to find out for sure.  Well, I don’t want to find that out, of course; I mean, who wants to find that sort of thing out?  But I NEED to find out!

I talked to Danny last night after play practice about it.  He’s known that I’ve always liked her.  He’s the only one I can talk to about all of this.  He’s the only one I can tell.  We talked for like an hour last night after practice.  He’s a really cool guy.

Peace out.  I’ll let you know what happens next.

What to call my dad at school…

Its a bizarre thing having your dad as the English teacher in your school.  He teaches eighth grade.  I’m in eighth grade.  So its just weird.  He’s the only English teacher who teaches Honors English too, so I have to be in his class since its an honors class.  I never know what to call him.  It feels natural to call him Dad, but to say that is strange too when your at school.  But it feels totally bizarre to call him by his teacher name.  That’s just insane crazy weird.  Nobody else is quite in that situation.  There’s a seventh grader whose mom is the principal.  And another kid whose mom is the vice-principal, but they don’t actually have their parents as a teacher.  There’s this other girl in honors English too whose Mom teaches elementary school, the same school where Cheyenne teaches kindergarten.  I should talk to her about it.  She must have went through something like this back then.

Here’s the thing, though, its hard to talk to her.  I sit just in front of her.  And she’s really really pretty.  But I can’t ever turn around, can’t talk to her.  And she’s so popular.  She’s got so many friends.  When I’m close I feel all those butterflies and things that people feel when they like somebody.  I guess that’s what it is.  But maybe I could use that whole parent-as-teacher thing as something to get us talking.

And no I didn’t have to pay up on the bet yet.  And no I’m not going to write down what I bet either in here!  Its way too embarassing, so don’t even ask me!

Another weekend in San Diego

Well, I got to spend my second weekend in a row in San Diego.  Last weekend, my dad took just me over to watch the World Baseball Classic.  We saw Japan beat Cuba; they went on to beat Korea last night to win the whole thing.  That’s pretty cool for them.

Anyways, on this trip, my whole family went.  I guess I can say its my whole family.  Cheyenne and her kids went with dad and Pickle and me.  Its weird to call them my family.  Don’t get me wrong at all.  I love those guys.  Its so awesome having another set of twins around.  Spenser and Symon are Cheyenne’s kids, and they are kinda like my little brothers now.  That’s pretty cool.  And JoeyLyn is their little sister and she’s pretty cool too.  I’m really starting to like her.  She can be annoying at time, but overall, she’s really cute and fun to have around.  And Cheyenne isn’t bad either.  Not really.  Its actually nice having a woman in our house again.  But its hard too.  I can’t call her mom.  That’d be wrong.  Way wrong.  That would be like forgetting Mom.  I can’t believe its been three years since she died.  That’s insane.  I still miss her so much.  Its like she was ripped away, ya know?  No kid should have to ever lose his mom.  That’s just wrong.  Way wrong.

Anyways, Dad and Cheyenne called in sick for work Friday, and we took off Thursday and stayed right through Sunday.  I don’t think Cheyenne minded calling in sick at all, but I could tell Dad felt guilty about it.  He never really does that.  Well, Cheyenne never does either, but I think with the whole pink slip situation, she just really does not care that much right now.  And dad cares, but he’s always trying to keep up appearances, to always do the right thing.  I don’t know.  All I know is that it felt really good to have him paying attention to me instead of all the other kids at school.  Sometimes I think he forgets that I’m his kid.  I get kind of jealous when I hear him refer to all the kids in his class as his kids.  There not his kids.  I’m his kid, and that’s different. Not that I’m a jealous person.  But he is my dad.  Does that make sense?

Oh, and one more thing.  About that Korea Japan game last night – I sort of kind of made a little bet about it with my friend Kyo from school.  Kyo’s real cool and he helps me with math and computers sometimes and I help him with English.  Well, he’s pretty cool and stuff and we got talking about betting on the game.  And we made this really stupid bet.  And its weird.  I knew Korea was going to lose, I just knew it, but I bet with him anyway.  I guess I just wanted to bet for the sake of betting.  And I lost.  And now I kind of have to do this stupid thing for him.  Ugh.  I’ll tell you about it later.  I guess.  Or maybe I won’t.  Its really embarassing.  Oh well.  Bye for now.

Peace out everybody.  Happy Tuesday!