Disappearing blogs and friends
Its funny. Blogs in SL are dying. I look at friends in SL who haven’t written in their blogs in months, one hasn’t written in his blog in over a year. I wonder, though, lately if its the world around me dying, or if its me that’s dying. The kids community in SL is thriving. There are lots of kids events and shows and dances and publications. Its just that I’m not part of it anymore.
Mattie logged in for a few minutes yesterday. It’d be easier if he wouldn’t do that. Log in for just a few minutes just so he can disappear again. He doesn’t realize the affect that has. Its as though I have the friends I made two years ago still, but I really am not in touch with the new kids who come along, even though they are the hi-profile kids with lots of friends now. I log in to SL mostly to see those friends, usually kikai friends, who I love most dearly. I’m not there to make new friends really. Not that I’m against making new friends by any means, but its just that I’m a bit introverted lately and spend most of my time when I am in SL fiddling around the island.
I’m feeling really somber and down today. It’ll pass. I’m not sure what’s wrong with me. Actually I kind of do know what’s wrong. I feel like I’m being pushed away by a certain person, and then also I feel like that person is mad at me because I’m neglecting her and not around enough. I’m there a lot. Every day. Every night. If I pull this person close, then I get pushed away. If I run away and hide for a little while, then there is this guilty feeling laid on me for not being there. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. No matter what I do, I’m messing this up.
I’m just tired. I’m just in a down place right now, and it will get better. Its ok.
Peace out.
December 10, 2008 at 5:48 am
Shakes, I know exactly what you mean. This has come up in some of my blogs, too.
Yeah, whether we are talking about our private Second Lives, our SL cliques, or our SL venues, it is important to bring in new blood to offset the attribution and to reinvigorate our SLs.
People have every right to downsize their SLs or to drop out. It’s a shame to lose friends, but I’m not one to put guilt on others. My personal philosphy to SL has always been “fun, freedom and friendship.” I worry a bit, however, about those who abruptly and inexplicably disappear (e.g. Tsu *sigh*, Felix) and would sure just like to know that they’re OK.
The problem with dropouts is that it becomes a vicious circle. When our friends drop out, we feel alone – and ourselves drop out. All the more important to actively reach out to new friends. *belly poke*
December 11, 2008 at 11:54 pm
So lets you and me definitely find some time to cuddle this holiday season then! Love you Russy!